Yeah so it's totes disgustingly hot in Toronto right now. I have been getting drunk a lot, spending money I don't have, drinking those weird little 6-hour energy drinks, wearing heels, eating food, going on the internet. lol.

I've been thinking a lot lately about how I have to make some good, solid friends. I'm kind of at the point where I need a solid crew of people whom I can rely on. I picture us drinking & talking about shit whilst wearing weird clothes. Also, biking around & falling in a heap together. I guess I'm sick of friends flaking out, which is probably unjustified since I am flaky sometimes too, but I feel like I'm making an effort to not be. I realized that I really have no friends that I can totally rely on, and that sucks. It can be hard to make new friends, especially with other women, and I am shy. I need to find more alcoholic chicks in Toronto. I know they're out there.

Also... I need to find a job as I have literally $4 and that's definitely not enough to buy anything that contains alcohol or nicotine. Aside from mouthwash, but including tax, that will likely be more than $4. Also, why is TTC SO EXPENSIVE and shitty!?! I need to try to walk & ride my bike everywhere. I don't ride my bike much in traffic though because I don't have a helmet and I am reluctant to wear one because I don't want to look like a nerd, which is stupid, but I am shallow like that.

My roommate owes me money for the internet bill and I want him to pay me so that I can have fun times this weekend and not just at home, by myself. His room smells like damp feathers. But he's cool though.

i am loving these shoes.

and i am loving this tea - it is incredible! i have [at least temporarily] replaced coffee with an amazing white jasmine tea from Murchies - a fabulous fair trade coffee & tea company in Canada.

it's raining today. i must brave the weather to buy more carrots & bananas. the mixed green habit was becoming too expensive.

i am doing a massive ~detox~ thing wherein i am drinking like 4 litres of white tea a day. i now have a $2.50/day mixed greens habit. i am peeing like every 15 minutes.

but i haven't had coffee or sugar or anything good in 5 days! that's definitely a personal best, which i suppose is really tragic.

i'd kill for a loaf of bread right now.

oh hay!

i live in toronto now.

i am broke.

i like a guy who just wants to be friends.

sups?

i'm not dead!!

apparently this is 1994 because i'm ordering some things online from amazon which can't be shipped to canada. dang. if someone in the USA could help me, it would be much appreciated. ♥ just putting it out there.